Wenhui

YEAH!!! today had a good start!!! my dad told me when i woke up that i gt EAGLES award!!! i was shock and happy.. :) haha.. 200 dollars!! first a big thank you to gm and guides!!!!! den to miss ng kim geok!! :) because of them i gt the award:) shall collect it when i go school.. later wil be goin out wif my friends to celebrate huimin's bday!! happy advanced birthday!!! :) haha... workin at Dayys is very fun but tiring and with some uncooperative ppl its even worse.. sigh... but its ok.. lik wad others say jus dun care abt them.. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN CUI!!! :) It was my birthday ytd.. well found a job and yes i had fun.. i love the food at jack's place.. its nice:) but hui min dunno how cut her steak.. haha.. and made a mess on her table.. but it was a painful day to me too.. i really dunno wad to do le.. only left wif a choice to forgive anf forget le barh.. how i wish i could go back to malaysia and stay there forever.. away from this place.. i cannot face my feelings anymore.. i really dunno wad i can do.. sigh.. but i know it is impossible to do so.. there are friends and ppl who i cant leave behind here.. how can i do? anyway i love gossip girl!!!!!!!!! it's nice.. :) haha.. pls show season 4 episode 10 asap.. i am dyin le.. but it wil only be shown next mon!!! and chace crawford is damn hot!!! omg!!! haha..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN CUI!!! :) It was my birthday ytd.. well found a job and yes i had fun.. i love the food at jack's place.. its nice:) but hui min dunno how cut her steak.. haha.. and made a mess on her table.. but it was a painful day to me too.. i really dunno wad to do le.. only left wif a choice to forgive anf forget le barh.. how i wish i could go back to malaysia and stay there forever.. away from this place.. i cannot face my feelings anymore.. i really dunno wad i can do.. sigh.. but i know it is impossible to do so.. there are friends and ppl who i cant leave behind here.. how can i do?

enough of all these nonsense.. if i know who betrayed me, let me warn u!! u will die very severely.. and i will hate u in my entire life!! and let me tell u, u r jus a hypocrite.. thats the conclusions we drew altogether..

NO MORE PROM!!!! SCREW HIM SIA!!!! IDIOT!!!! DUN MENTION THE WORD IN FRONT OF ME!!! IF NOT I WIL DO SOMETHING NASTY!!! URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT HIM!!!!!

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4 MORE FOR ME!!! :)

yeah!! :) i can really say goodbye to the sch and this hell year!! woot!!! :) after o goin to play in full blasts!!! :) yeah yeah.. by then i think i am goin to do sth that i may regret or happy.. it depend on the results.. thanks shuhui for listenin to my sorrows last sat!!! :) after finding out sth.. :) love ya!! :) jiayou for the rest of papers!!

sigh.. this is probably the last post before o? sigh.. have been chiongin and i should be slpin now but i must really post this post to vent my anger, etc.. i really dunno who i can trust, apart from myself.. why must u treat me lik this? i really dunno how to tel u my feelings.. have been cheatin on me by tellin lies.. maybe i had not changed from my innocence from all these hurtings.. are u really wantin to hurt me to an extent that i vanish from this place? sigh.. i really dunno.. 1 thing i am sure: i am not goin to any outings.. i wont be so dumb again.. u know wad? maybe havin fb is a really bad choice.. at least i can stay dumb and dunno anythin that u did.. sigh.. even a idiot knows wad u are thinking!!! have been discussin and suspecting.. my cousin is rite, i shouldnt worry abt these stupid stuffs.. should work hard on my o!! y nt u tell me wad i should do.. i am really tired! who can pull me from these sorrows? from these troubles? who can tel me wad to do? i am really lost.. sigh.. i am not goin to lock this.. cus this is really the last time i hope i am postin abt these stuffs..


PS: thanks to all who encouraged me and helped me:)
PSS: i am left with nothin but my own shell, without my souls..

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back to post... hmm... think time to update the blog le ba.. last wed to fri had our class camp, hopefully nt one and the only... on the last day, ms lam gets too emotional when sharin wif us wad she learnt and observed from the camp. a few tears dropped when saw her cryin and when she said words of encouragement.. dunno why too... Ryan's grp gt first!!! Congrats:) and hope that cas's toe is okay.. :) well, honestly, when i first know that my sec 3 class consists of who, i am not that lookin forward and instead, i actually questioned myself if it is a challenge that God post to me... i really freaked out and really hope that time wil pass very fast and once graduate den i dun have to care abt it... but as time goes, altho our class is stil nt that bonded due to some misunderstandings and issues, but feelings and friendships grow between each and everyone of us... words of encouragements and jokes and laughters and even sadness was well shared among us altho nt all... 1 and a half yr passed tgt wif the class and teachers... and now i really know that it is a blessing from God's to end up in the class... and it made all of us stronger... i wil miss this class and hope that we can hv class gathering once a yr after this yr... jia you for o!!! as ms lam has said all of us have a potential to do well.. so if we want and put in lots of efforts, we wil sure do well and make it to our dream school!!! all the way faith 4-2!!! and of cos, my best friends! without u all, there will be no wen hui now... thanks for accompanyin me and for listening to my sorrows and agony, be it now or in the past:) and shu hui has recovered from chicken pok!!!!! haha... congrats!!!! today, jus sent my mum to the changi airport as she is flyin to hong kong for a holiday trip.. well, enjoy mum!!! bon voyage!!! oh ya!!! tmr is my baby cousin's 1 yr old bday!!! happy birthday my dear!!! :) grown up le...


PS: forget to tel u that my group consists of Zion, Gladys, Alson, Pakhrin, Mandie, Shu fang, Nathan, Javier, Yun Cui, Timothy and me!!:)
PSS: 1st: Ryan's group :Ryan, Germin, Casandra, Rachael, Regina, Hui min, Daryl, Sean, Wee Keong, Alicia
2nd: us
3rd: think Haris's grp? (or opp)
4th: joy's grp? (or opp)

Anyways great job everyone!!!! :)

YOU KNOW WAD?! TAEYEON is here in SINGAPORE!!! OMG!!! I cant believe it!!! but it is true!!! I tot they are suppose to be preparin for their asia tour concert from changbok? but its good tho as she get to catch some break! and she is here with her family!!!! on holiday i think:) hope they have some fun here!! and guess wad!! SOME ppl are stalkin her but i dunno if she notices that these strange ppl is followin her... haha.. :) all the way snsd, esp taeyeon!!! hope that i wil meet her lik tmr? but i know is impossible:( i wan her signature and i think she has a good character rite? think she will give ba... dunno... omg!! it is really a shockin news man!!! OMG!!! Hope that suju will be comin too or some of them comin here for holiday... anyway, haha.. chinese o level paper 2 is over.. good jobs to all and jia you for those who think they cant score well, but dun slack too much tho!!! 3 more months to o level!!! nt enough time le... kk... off to study le... bb!!!

back to post... lik wad i said ytd that i am goin to post today!! why? simple!! cos its rachael loh's b'day!!! Happy 16th B'day!!! haha... tmr wil be celebratin for her if i am nt wrong... and!! tmr wil be gettin back our mye results!!! noooo... i am super scared now... i wil fail a maths for sure.. if i pass, it wil be a miracle.. and for ss i nt sure... i am scared now... really!!! how? oh ya!!! i get in love wif lots of songs!!! one of those is DBSK's song named Love in the Ice.. it was introduced to me by my eldest bro... he went for holiday and wil be back in less than 2 weeks time... miss him alot!! hope he had fun!!! :) and another two songs by taeyeon, leader of snsd: Can you hear me and 만약에 (IF). It is super nice!!!!! really!!! esp can you hear me!! It rocks man!!! and another one S.E.O.U.L. by taeyeon and fellow snsd group members Seohyun, Sooyoung, Jessica and Sunny. Superjunior's Leeteuk, Kyuhyun, Ryeowook, Sungmin, Shindong, and Donghae. its nice... and a happy song. and lastly, super junior's version of heal the world!!! guides sang this song last year at our thinking day rally.. its nice and its nicer when it is sang by super junior!!! k nth to write now!! bb:)

k finally all the exams are over!!! hurray!!! has been stressed up for the past 3 weeks? and am both physically and mentally tired... Well there is oneand the first major exams coming up: Chinese O level exams!!! wow... good luck to the rest of the sec 4s takin chinese this year as i had cleared mine last year:) well, we can relax abit now but i dun think the rest can... will try to help him for his chi and give him intensive chinese lessons... hope he can get a B but not a C... hmm.. will see wad i can do ba... oh ya... erm... oral is counted as our prelims mark but nt mye and i only know this lik ytd or 2 days ago? i was shocked!!! and wad if i din do well? i am really scared now... Tmr is a school holiday and wil be stayin at home... nowadays use com til very late and was watchin The Pupil at the xinmsn website... is cool and nice... I strongly recommend this show!!! it toks abt law and bla bla... and i think it motivates those who want to be lawyers... and i think it is definitely a tough job when it especially involves personal things but must do their duty without havin own feelings... hmm... tues may be gettin back our results... scared now.. and faith 41 has 22 ppl failed their ss... den wad abt my class? hope that i pass as i studied really alot for it... hmm... later will be goin out to shop wif my family... but i dunno wad time... hmm... i am bored now... oh ya.. erm... nowadays somethin went worse and went very wrong... their attitude is really bad and they r lik someone's dog... thats wad we found out... oh come on... u said u dun lik me... pls la... go watch urself in the mirror... as if everyone liks u lik that... face the reality man!!! and i know some secrets and i have evidence to proof that some ppl called names and wad if i show this to the teacher? wow.. i really want to see their reactions man... and i definitely not only wan a apology... but i woud definitely wan u to pay back... this i wil confirm... lets see who is the winner in the end... i am nt goin to give in anymore... :) lets see... my first and last friendly warnin!!! if u tel teacher, i wil play wif u all the way and lets see who has the last laugh... if u r nt scared, go ahead:) shameless ppl!!! enuf of tokin abt these stupid ppl... and i know they wil see this post... :) have el homeork... and now i have to go do it... so wil be back to poat tmr!! bye...

PS: glad to say that i learn to forgive and forget but i am stil tryin to trust ppl... oh ya... for ur ans, i wil nt say for sure and u know it urself and think abt wad u did behind me...

Back to post after so many weeks... hmm... dunno how to start off... i jus find that no one in this world has a truthful heart or has nt been a hypocrite for at least once... including me i think... esp in front of some ppl... something really happen to our class for these few weeks... which i dun think i wan to tok abt it.. at least there is one thing i think i should post it here... Shu hui joined our clique lik ytd? hees... it is a good thing and i really lik her!!! she sooo good... wad the pervious clique that she left has lost is a such a good friend... they may think that we or in fact i am tho one who steal away her from them but i din... i dunno why they make such a fuss abt it.. seriously... we sit tgt, of cos we wil get close and of cos we wil share sth or some secrets tgt... this is wad everyone do rite... jus dun betray others... tokin abt own stuffs is nt a bad thing ya? but someone jus get jealous and paranoid... sigh... forget it... but jus wan to make things clear, she did nt betrayed them and she jus feel left out when in their clique... everyone gt their choice rite? when she is in ur clique, they jus give her cold shoulders and dun care abt her.. when they lose each other's accompany, den they find her... she is nt a spare tyre fyi... thats why she chose to leave u all... when she said that she want to discuss sth wif u u keep avoidin and say u r busy and bla bla... den when she sms u, accordin to ur wish, u dun reply... so now wad? she is confused and we too... den in class, u keep lookin at us and repeat wad she and i did... for wad? i had bury all the hatches and i tot u did and changed... but now i dun think so... when she said that u h=guys and her can stil be friends, except for jel & nat, the rest jus dun care her and ignore her... LOL la!!! and the rest also ignore me and u diao me!!! u tot i am blind? i jus dun wan to 计较 lo... angry cos of such things is stupid... but i definitely dun deserve that... if u do that again, of cos i wil learn from u and repay wad u did... 有样学样... so pls give her ur ans... dun tok abt it le... hmm... lik wad i mentioned before... dun be a hypocrite... if wan say hi or forgive jus 光明正大... no need to do it behind my back... as if i care and it seems that u r guilty of sth... i jus dun lik this feelin... its kind of cheatin me or betrayin me... thats all... sigh... anyways... exams coming!!!! jiayousss and good luck!!! score well!!! hope that i improve and overcome my A maths and chem too!!!!! :) ytd went nite study at nlb wif someone... hees... thanks for helpin me!!! and imu... sigh...

I really dunno why I blog today but I jus feel lik it... Lik wad i said the previous post, I am not goin to blog my own real feelin anymore as I really dunno who to trust now... And after minus all my feelings, I have left nothin to post abt... I promise myself nt to post anythin abt my feeling anymore in this blog, except the grateful heart and happy times... For the sad moments, Nah... Not to be appeared here anymore or I'll lock it ba... or unless I had enough and really wan to erupt le... I felt unwanted and insecure out of the sudden which I dunno y... And some other mixed feelings... Both created by friends and maybe him ba... I really dunno... Sigh... Must I really cut myself? No way!! I am not that foolish to hurt myself...*skip* But anyway, I felt unwell on thurs, just a day before cross country... Heartbeat was fast again and really cant breathe and no energy... My face was pale and my whole body turned cold... Broke in cold sweat and thus, bro and mum were discussin if want to bring me to hospital not... But I refuse... I am tired of hospital and the check-up last time doesnt help at all... All they say is we cant find the reason... And I think its a waste of money since thats the case... Cause my mum and whole family to worry... I am sorry... I felt helpless that time... Why do I have this kind of problem? I dunno... My tear jus went running down... So din go and let it be... After 3 hrs plus den it came back to normal... And went to slp for friday cross country!!! thanks for your comfort and accompany!! Although you sometimes wont reply my msg... I ran but as promise to my family and myself, I will nt run very fast and rest whenever I felt something wrong... So walked more than half the journey... But still, get in top 120... Got 68th position... Thankfully as this is the last year.. And good job Regina and Amelia!!! Regina got 25th position and Amelia got 23th? If I am not wrong... Rachael also not too bad... :) This year it is very competitve and the top 10 are all sec3 except 1, jia qi... Congrats anyway... :) Sec 3s good job ya? And Alson its ok u din get into top 10... Dun sad:) At least u got 16... Which is a very good rankin... In top 20 leh... :) And archer won the cheer competive with the score 50 points... And this pulls archer house to rank 1 this year for cross country!!!(originally should be second) First time in the 4 yrs in GM!!! What an achieve... Hees:) Finally... Karen was super happy and thank all the cheereaders includin me!! Haha... Welcome Karen, u are the one who has help archer the most... :) And ytd was my mum's 51 yrs old b'day!!! Haha!!! Happy Belated Birthday mum!!!! Muacks... Luv you!!!! Hope that u will have a healthier body and dun be so fierce le la... Haha... :) Took some photo and bought her a present, wudi dictionary, to assist her for her learnin journey for english... Haha:) Jia you mum!!! Ya... Think i shall end here... Wil try to upload photo next time usin family pc cos now usin my bro laptop...

What the stupid hell is happening sia!!! Are u guys still considering me as your friends?! I HAD enough!!! U said that u had lost trust in me, me too!!! I have totally no trust in you!!! I am not scared that anyone read this post and backmouth me or wadever shit!!! I am not goin to locked this post!!! I did not do anything wrong!!!! I deserved something better than this!!! I really cant tolerate anymore!!! Why am I always the one who give in?! Last time lik that, now also!!!! And this is the last time I am giving in!!!! Next time I will not volunteer to give in anymore and be the stupid one anymore!!! After this year, I wil try to strive for the best and work hard to fufill my dreams! go ahead and demorailse me! I dun give a damn to it!!! This post is to tel everyon that every patience has a limit!!! And when it reaches, I will not hestitate but to break off any ties with anyone!!! I meant wad I say!!! I had enough for everything!!!!! And I hate hypocrites!!! From now on, I am going to close my heart shut and not to share any thing wif anyone anymore, even worse than last time!!! So if u see me emo, dun come and approach me or I will jus walk away and hide at one corner!!! Huishan said sth rite, maybe non-living things or pets are better than any human being in this cold world!!!! Thats all I am going to say!!! After all, u can jus go on guessin who I referrin to but better dun ask me!!! You may think is you, but I dunno! I wil jus walk off... If u dun wan to see me giving anyone cold shoulders, the smart way is to shut ur mouth and dun ask anything!!!! Thanks!!! This is a place where I can spill all my feelings out from last time till now and vent my anger(thats why I am not scared!), but not anymore!!!